If people can fall in love, I wonder if they can fall out of it too. Climbing out of love can't be a voluntary thing... It must be something you fight against. But maybe, just sitting in love all the time gets sort of lukewarm and dirty, like taking a bath for too long a time. And maybe it's too much to torture yourself by how love looks now and how you remember it to look when you first fell in. So you start to go kinda nuts down there in love.
I guess climbing out of love is a last resort. It's something you have to do to keep your sanity. And while you're on that ladder, making your way to the top, you still must look down from time to time and get scared. That kind of scared that you feel in the pit of your stomach that feels like someone punched you there and left a poison in your insides...
Because love is all you've ever known, you're not sure what you'll meet up there in the real world. And it's tempting to lose your footing and fall back into love, but you know it won't ever be the same. You know that if you ever topple off that ladder, the only relief will be that it's familiar down there in love. And frankly, that familiarity is what was driving you crazy in the first place.
When you finally climb out of love, you must know you've come unprepared. It's much colder out of love than you thought it would be and immediately you start to regret putting your feet on that ladder. Because it was warm down there in love, and who knows if you'll ever be warm again? Climbing out of love feels like perpetual coldness.
But the thing about love is that it never really leaves you. Even when you've climbed out of love, you can still feel it around you, a trace of what was. Love has taught you something, no matter how many plates and bowls and hearts were broken in the process. That trace of love isn't enough to warm you, but it's enough to remind you that warmth still exists.
So when you climb out of love, make sure you bring your knitting needles. Because you're going to need a nice wool sweater to keep you going until you fall back in again.
