The Downside

I am having a serious problem.


I cannot think of anything to write. I have lost my creative mojo. I have ceased all communications with the weird and the wonderful.

I have stopped TRYING.

And it's not just with my blog. I've been neglecting work. I have this five-page paper due in a month (sounds not so bad...but it has to be written in Spanish), of which a first draft is due on May 7th (the same day as the Castle finale) and I haven't even finished my research. I'm not even halfway done.

The last time I actually sat down and did the work I was supposed to do was on Thursday. Two Thursdays ago.

I am in a downward spiral.

I need a PURPOSE, a GOAL, a REASON TO KEEP GOING, a....

I need to stop being so dramatic...

But also get some work done.



I just feel like I need some time ALONE. By myself. So I'm not so distracted. If only I had my own place where I could live in sweet solitude. Without so much NOISE. There's so much noise....(looks around frantically)

On the upside, I wrote a lullaby. Which I've always wanted to do.

On the downside, I'm in one of my "I don't care" phases.

On the upside, it's just phase.

On the downside, my grades don't care whether I'm going through a phase or not.

On the downside, I forgot to do my homework for my mother (which is worse than not doing homework for my regular teacher).

And on the downside again, I don't actually remember what that homework was.